One of the things that I hear all too often about myself is
that I am “not a typical American…”
One of the things I have noticed living abroad is that many cultures love to
throw around that phrase, “typical American,” as if 300 million people are all
the same. I have realized too that the more I am in such cultures, I tend
towards using the “typical” brand as well. And, well, there are clichéd and
stereotypical Americans, Belgians, Italians, Indians, and so forth. So, it is a
bit of a Catch-22. So, no I am not a “typical
American,” though at times, I am very much so.
However, what living in various countries has done for me is
to learn a sense of syncretism, or bringing lots of viewpoints into my own
belief system. This, of course, infuriates a purist, who will lament me as not
taking a stand. Or, like Jim Hightower is attributed as saying that the only
thing in the middle of the road is a yellow line and dead armadillos.
Well, count me in with the fallen armadillos. I am neither
pro-American, nor Anti-American. I am neither for religion, nor against. I am
neither Republican, nor Democrat.
Well, who the hell am I? What do I stand for?
I believe in the process and the bigger picture, one, that
as Kant said, is just too damn big for us humans to comprehend. I will not take
a stand on the big questions as the jury is still out for me. Is this world
Good, or is it Evil? I don’t know, it is still going along, and will most
likely do so long after the last human is scratching his or her cranium
thinking about that question.
Though it is impossible to really, really, really live just
in the moment, I do try. Yes, I am a product of my Past and the composition of
my Future hopes, dreams, and desires, but we really only can process what is
happening now, as we cannot change what has, nor fully predict what will.
Yet, with the combination of what we have learned, and what
we wish to do, that informs us at every moment, fleeting as it may be, and
gives us choices to make. Perhaps that is where I am a “typical American,” as I
do believe in choices, and I do believe in the precepts of Freedom and
Independence that shaped my country, regardless of the atrocities against such
concepts that it itself has incurred upon itself and others.
Do we contradict ourselves? Yes, we do. As Walt Whitman
wrote, “Do I contradict myself? Very Well, then I contradict myself.” We fear
contradictions, and I know that I am guilty of that, both contradicting myself
and pointing it out in others. However, it is the apparent contradictions that
do bring a variety to our lives, for better or for worse. The best thing we can
do is to learn to incorporate such diversity and contradiction into our lives,
so that we can continue to move forward, and to avoid being paralyzed by the
thought.
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